Am I in depression? Am I not?

Am I in depression? That's what doctor told so. 

Anyways lets find out what made me to be depressed.

What is it with this creature called "Human Being"?

Why does he always crave for change? Change of place, change of job, change of love, change of wants and needs.

Why can't stay in one place, have a job to earn, a family to feed, friends to cherish and a vehicle to commute?

What is it with me? Why i always write philosophical blogs? Why have i stopped writing

skits and comedy plays? Because, even my words will become fake and my expressions will become pale when i try to write comedy when am not happy. May be am facing a mid-life crisis as i just crossed 30 :)

So here i come. Why am i not happy? What is it bothering me? I would say so many things are running in my mind right now. I was most disturbed when few of my colleagues got laid off from our company. I could not express my feelings. I could not arrange for proper send off. Am the lead. I had my role  to keep the team intact and professional. I was helpless even i was being projected as the only responsible person who picked people to let go. Obviously i was hurt and frustrated. Gradually my mind started thinking about matters which are bothering the world. I was slowly submerging into a pool of worries.

If we consider, thousands of year ago, most of our ancestors used to live like that. A few acres of land in a village for living and a happy joint happy family with kids, uncles, aunties, brothers, sisters, grandpa and grandma. There was no wish greater than feeding family and meeting their basic needs. There was no greed. A miniature RAMARAJYA in every home. There used to be a member who heads and make every decision in the family. All others used to unconditionally bowed to his decisions. Trust was valued with words, respect was evident with honesty, gratitude was to help, guests were treated with love, education full of common sense, humanity was considered to be rich. 

What now? No united families. Everyone in the family is considered to be head of the

family. Hesitation to take responsibilities. Pathetic job. Sending away children on job to other countries is still considered as mark of prestige. We are forced to do what we don't like to do. And we infinitely keep dreaming of things that we like to do. Affection and love is being measured by gifts. Ok to spend thousands on parties. NOT OK to give away a fraction for charity. Politics is no more a service and has become a symbol of money. Money has become symbol of status. Religions have become symbol of hatred. Trust has remained just in dictionary. Caring is being forcible. 

Friends are in facebook. Communication in whatsapp and skype. 1000 channels in TV but no time to watch. News have become a circus. Adventure are for taking pictures. Kids are being made obsessed with gadgets. Education without common sense. Playing grounds are turned into apartments. Lakes are polluted. Parks are populated. Drinking water are being charged. Oxygen theaters are being introduced to get good air. Food has become slow poison. Villages are becoming old age homes. Farmers are committing suicide. Hundreds and thousands of tons of food and food grains are being wasted. Contrary, billions of people are suffering from malnutrition. Millions turn up in gym, aerobics, dance classes, yoga etc to keep them fit by paying fortunes. Contrary, only few turn up for voluntary works which will also make them burn calories and keep them fit. More than 20% of our country's currency are fake notes.

Enough reasons for me to be depressed? Am so worried about coming generations. What they will turn this world into?

World is going very fast. World is being insensitive. World is greed. Richest 100 people holds over 80% of the wealth in the world. Remaining 20% of the wealth is shared by the rest. Am talking about wealth in billions of people are not even able to match 100 people in the world. Crony Capitalism is the biggest threat than terrorism. Then rich show off in the news paper by giving away a fraction in charities. Very generous.


I will give you one simple example why am worried about this world. I have not gone to office since 3 weeks. Only few know that am not well. Others have just noted my absence in my desk. None. Not even a single person called me or texted me to check on me. How can you expect team work from a team like this? Very funny. Unfortunately this is the world we are living in.

I only wish people understand this as soon as possible and turn this world a better living place. Good Luck.

With Love,
RD